Good morning and happy Friday!! I have quite the exciting weekend ahead of me, and I hope you’re looking forward to yours as well.
If there’s one thing I’m completely honest about with you guys, it’s the fact that working out does not come easily for me. I was never an athlete, and only began a regular workout routine a few years ago – trust me when I say I did not like to sweat or exert myself.
When I first started working out, I clung to the elliptical with all my might, never traveling to any other machine or equipment in the gym. But as a trotted along on the elliptical, I wanted to be like the girls in front of me on the treadmills.
After a few months, with a hummingbird heart, I walked into the gym, past the ellipticals and stepped onto a treadmill for the first time in my life. It was miserable. Painful. I walked for two minutes, “ran” for two minutes. But I was determined to be a runner.
After running my first 5K in college, I started noticing that girls lifting weights in the “guy” section. Those girls don’t have any jiggle about them, I thought, I want to be like them.
And so I focused on strength training. Then back to wanting to be a runner, only to break up again. Then back to wanting to be a hard body like girls on the “guy’s side.”
Then I got bored and wanted to get strong. So for the past two weeks I’ve been focusing on strength training.
Do you see the pattern? I have, until literally 8:30 this morning, felt the need to be a certain way. That I had to be either a runner or weights enthusiast. A cardio kickboxing queen or a super spinner. That I had to have a “thing.”
Well you know what? I like all of that stuff, and I want to STOP trying to fit into a certain group. So what if I’ll always be the new girl in fitness classes, or running in shorter races rather than half marathons, or having a little jiggle in some areas?
I’m finally okay with the fact that I’m just going to be active and do whatever I feel. I don’t have to identify as anything besides Colleen, the girl who loves all kinds of fitness.