bitch blog is back, folks.
I’m not sure if anyone missed me, but I sure as shit missed you.
I genuinely thought that I was making the right decision by stepping away from blogging. I thought, who cares about my stupid blog? It’s been 5 years, and what do I have to show for it? but the thing is, deep down, I care about my stupid blog.
Over the years, a real community was built here, and I sincerely miss contributing to it. Real people read this blog, and that’s what makes it something special to me. No one will ever come here for pretty pictures of homemade meals or tutorials on how to master the art of an up-do, but women will come here because I genuinely want you to feel like you belong.
When I closed up shop, I had reached a point (that I’m sure I’ll tell you about) where I was convinced I wouldn’t miss it here. I thought walking away and changing my Instagram handle would erase the fact that I’ve spent years talking to you.
I still want to tell you about how my kid ate a piece of bread out of the trash last week because I think it’s funny, and because I think it gives you permission to relax about the fact that maybe your kid prefers literal garbage food over the food you make him, too. And maybe you would never allow your kid to be in such a filthy situation, but it might make you laugh.
I still want to talk to you about the fact that I’m pregnant for the second time, and although my gratefulness trumps everything, I’d be lying if I told you that I never experience moments of sheer “how the fuck am I going to do this?!” panic (among many other things.)
credit: Layna Rae Photography
I still have a desire to share the real life side of motherhood with you, because I think it’s missing in our age of social media. I don’t want to spend 20 minutes staging an instagram picture of a latte and pink peonies in order to justify a “real mom moment” caption, when in all reality, I don’t drink lattes or even know how to pronounce peonies.
So even though I have some hangups about coming back after walking away, I’m going to get over myself and get on with it. You know why? Because we have tons of catching up to do.
Here’s to hoping there’s one or two of you who are still willing to catch up with me!