I say it all the time, but my baseline these days is exhausted. It’s manageable (and dare I say, normal?) but even if Jack has a random good night(s) of sleep, my body has grown accustom to snapping awake every few hours. Once jarred awake, I brace myself for his cries, and when they don’t come, I lay there tensed up and unable to quickly fall back asleep, convinced I’m seconds away from the nighttime wails that punch me in the gut.
Like many new moms reading this, I walk around most days like a zombie, forgetting things left and right, and doing things like putting the dog’s leash in the fridge. But before you say, sleep when the baby sleeps, I’ll tell you why that’s simply not an option.
It doesn’t matter whether you work inside or outside the home. If you work in an office, you can’t take a nap under your desk, right? When my baby goes down to nap, I can’t crawl into bed because there are 800 things I need to do in that 45ish minutes (God help me.) Laundry. Dishes. Meal prep. Blogging. Emails. Articles. Shit that I cannot do when I have an awake baby who’s current main interest is attempting to lick electrical outlets.
Sleeping like a baby sucks
I admit, I attempted to sleep when Jack slept. But, I don’t fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow (because I’m thinking of all the aforementioned tasks that I could be doing.) Do you what happens, without fail, the minute my body relaxes and drifts off to sleep? The baby wakes up, and I’m left feeling like I have a weird combination of a hangover and the flu for the rest of the day.
74% of my showers happen in the middle of the day. For one, I’m not waking up before Jack just to wash my hair, and it doesn’t make sense to shower at 5am when I know for certain I’ll end up with my child’s spit up, feces, and/or urine on my skin before I eat breakfast at lunchtime.
Hulu + Netflix
Or Facebook, Instagram, Twitter or Buzzfeed. I know I have a lot of work to do, but I don’t get lunch breaks, so if/when my sweet little cherub surrenders and finally falls asleep, I may watch How to Get Away with Murder and scroll through Instagram during the Hulu commercial breaks.*
*this rarely happens.